Introspection

29 May is my birthday eve, every year I will spend some time on this particular day to review my performances (in any aspects) and figure out 'what's next?' for the coming year, so that I can get myself well-prepared to welcome the new age comes and face to some other responsibilities and challenges.

Tonight as usual, I start to think how's my 24-year-old-life! Well it's like a roller coaster going up and going down (well you may say life is supposed to be like that, and yes, you're right but mine's mainly going down and sometimes on a flat line if I'm lucky :P)... I lost my goals, didn't really know what to do and where to go. Everything was just pretty hazy; couldn't go forward and of course didn't wanna go backward. TOOO many many unexpected things happened, I know that they were likely caused because of my laziness and immaturity.

On the other hand, what I've got is truly understanding sometimes we really have to let things go, no matter what (honestly, I was stuck with one thing for almost 3 years which now I think is a pretty waste of my time...)... by accepting things unwanted and letting them go somehow you would learn forgiving people as well as forgiving yourself (nevermind if you ain't with me...). Sooo now I will try not to care something pisses me off but really trivial...

Emm one thing I manage to accomplish is to save some money, whatever how much would that be, it's a good habit (in a way) to cultivate after all :P

Having talked to my boss during the meal this afternoon, I told her about how I planned my careers and what I am gonna do in the future etc. She agrees with me that I gotta experience more related jobs and different fields then to tell what I really wanna do for the rest of my life, I can't just make any judgments by assuming and listening to others... hmm but this year would probably be the last chance to put myself out for *TRIAL* freely :P